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A Day in the Life of Haika Vibrose
Being a Collection of Day-to-Day Events in the Life of Haika Vibrose
Journal by: Haika Vibrose
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Force Wanderer, The Young One
Giver of the Baskets
Fellowship, transform, and roll out!
02-02-2006 01:15 AM
 
Hyperdrive acting up again today, and it seems like my comminications are on the fritz. Was it anything to do with the departure from Kashykk with Jenia?Speaking of Jenia, she is still unconcious, as is Julez. Mina said that she would meet me on Yavin IV after a few days. That gives me time to figure out what has happened to Jenia...what did Julez do to her?Forwhy has been complaining that he is being over-worked as of late. That's what comes from not memory wiping droids...they get ideas about vacations. Still, I said I would try and through some of the burdens of the place on the protocol droid.Looks like I won't be able to contact Luke for a while yet...I'll have to see him on Yavin, if he is still there. Maybe he can figure out what is wrong with Jenia. If he is there, then he'll know what do do. Not just about Jenia, but about Forwhy and the communications. Whatever, I'll just have to wait and see.
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Force Wanderer, The Young One
Giver of the Baskets
Fellowship, transform, and roll out!
Haika Vibrose
02-03-2006 09:22 AM
Jenia is up! She's awake! It turned out that Julez, who is also awake and is back to being Ahakg'har, had just used a tranqilizer, nothing dangerous! This is the second best news I've ever heard! I thought he might have actually hurt her. But there's something even more important than that right now...I've asked her to marry me. I know it is frowned upon in the Jedi Order, but it is no longer forbidden. Everything not Forbidden is Compulsary, some would say. She said "Yes!" This is even better than her not being hurt...


Luke says he's happy for us, and that it is better for two Jedi to marry than for a Jedi and a Sith. I wasn't sure if he was joking. He seemed to be looking at me a little too closely...was he worried that I might have killed Ahak andtaken my first step towards becoming a Sith?


Mina has also congratulated us, but it seems she has business elsewhere at the moment and we wont be able to see her at the wedding. Strange, though, I never heard of a reason for her leaving. Maybe she just wants some meditation time by herself for a while.


We'll be married on Kashyyk at the end of it's current cycle. So much to plan in so little time. Whatever, though, that's not what's important. It's the fact that we are getting married that is.

 

Force Wanderer, The Young One
Giver of the Baskets
Fellowship, transform, and roll out!
Haika Vibrose
05-22-2006 08:34 AM
This is my first entry in quite a while...I've been rather busy as of late. Although the hyperdrive and communications are back up and running, Forwhy is still looking for vacation time. I don't believe it is possible, though, because something is happening.

Jenia and I are visiting her parents on Dantooine. It's very nice here, but to open for my liking. Not enough trees. But that is not why I'm feeling so...uncomfortable. I've been having more premonitions, but I can't remember them. Something in me is just telling me that something bad is happening, and Jenia and I are in the middle of it. I don't know what to do.

I'm tired now, so I'll be getting some rest...unless the visions come. Goodnight...

 

Force Wanderer, The Young One
Giver of the Baskets
Fellowship, transform, and roll out!
Haika Vibrose
08-04-2006 04:55 PM
I realized my mistake in the visions. We were in the wrong place. We've dashed off to Coruscant to find the people we need to find.

Jenia's been acting a bit odd as of late. She seems to be getting sick and eating more. I have my suspisions...I may be wrong, but I really don't think so.

I have to go to sleep. I'm so tired.

 

Force Wanderer, The Young One
Giver of the Baskets
Fellowship, transform, and roll out!
Haika Vibrose
04-16-2007 05:20 PM
I've found time to write. It feels like so long since my last message. What has it been? Days? Weeks? I don't know anymore. My time on Lorrd felt so stretched out.

My head feels heavy. My body feels heavy. My mind...it's moving as fast as light. My emotions, my personality...it fluctuates. The darkness, I feel it. I keep slipping in and out. I go from good-nautured to murderous, friendly to evil in seconds. I feel guilt, then none. I'll have to learn to stay in the light. Even if I am not a Jedi, I could never leave that spark of goodness behind.

Goodness. Goodness. I know what goodness is now, more than I did when I walked in it. I smell it in the air around me, with every action she makes, she leaves it. She's asleep...they are asleep.

I'm going to be a father. I never thought it would come...much less like this. I don't know what type of parent I'll be. Whe-too was a grandfather, not a father. I never knew a mother. I'll have to learn.

Unfortunately, I may have to learn in gaps. My plan, which I have yet to tell my wife, is to leave them behind on Yavi IV, where Howldan will pick them up and bring them to Dantooine...it will be safer.

I haven't rested in a while. I feel my eyes shutting even now...even now...

 

Force Wanderer, The Young One
Giver of the Baskets
Fellowship, transform, and roll out!
Haika Vibrose
01-26-2009 05:24 PM
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My last files were destroyed. All of them. I haven't had an opportunity to write since, what, Lorrd? Yeah, right after Lorrd.

So much on my mind.

My life went up in blazes, but I don't feel it. All it was was stuff. I leave stuff behind at every junction. I've left behind my life as a Jedi, I left behind my wide and unborn child. I fear I may next give up my humanity.

My humanity. What is that? Everything is changing. I feel like I am becoming another person. Anger wells on me now. I feel it pressing. I can't release it. I feel fear well on me, and I want to use it. I want to use people. I feel like I know them better than they know themselves.

Gods know I don't know myself.

All of it is gone, and now I fight for people who don't know me. I am prepared to spy for them, to kill in cold blood for them. Or am I? Am I ready to kill in cold blood for them? I don't know. They seem shallow to me, like their lives are only as deep as their shallow smiles, their "Thank you, master Vibrose"s. They know me about as much as they know their friends.

Not at all.

I see the way they look at each other, at me. They look at each other like pawns. Not friends. I anger.

Gods, what am I becoming? Something has instigated this change. What do I do? What do I do?

I become what I am becoming, but I protect myself. My center.

Jenia.

 

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